Over thinking only makes you loose yourself!
That's what I've done over these last two years overthinking every situation, every conversation, every maybe and every what if with hopes that we would be one! There are parts of me that I let go off and shredded along the way which probably I'll never go back to being! I've lost the soul of me in trying to seek you!
"Tôi ấy, khi còn được ôm em thật chặt so với nhà vua còn giàu có hơn
Từng hạnh phúc biết bao...
Tôi đây, khi không còn em so với người ăn xin còn nghèo túng hơn
Niềm đau này, khắc sâu thật sâu..."
Nhà vua và kẻ ăn xin - Hoa Thần Vũ
So I died many times that year.
In the cold, in the storm, on the run or on the drunk for my heart did not want to beat
but kept on beating anyway
and my pain was as real as real can be,
and I tried to learn and deal and run and feel
but nothing really worked.
I built a comfortable home in my sorrow and settled into a quiet living. No sparks or grand gestures, just a simple daily hymn to comfort. The leaves fell off the trees and coloured this city in all kinds of pretty, and some days that was enough to make me smile at least a little bit, within. || from my book “Another Vagabond Lost To Love” ♡