Looking back, I haven't paid rent in almost 8 years. Between living in tents, a yellow VW beetle, accommodating friends and being abroad so much for climbing and nursing it hasn't been financially viable. Well, I've now taken a 9 week nursing assignment in Reno and am paying rent for 3 whole months in Truckee! (And maybe more?)
And you know what? I.cant.wait. I love traveling and seeing and participating in this big wide world but I've been grappling with a yearning for some stability, a place to regularly lay my head, a chance to see friends for more than a few frantic days here and there.
It's a hard thing to come to terms with - the desire to *not* travel. Social media tells me everyday that travel is the way to happiness, to fulfillment and what the cool kids do. Maybe that's true but I think I'm gonna try for a bit more balance. Travel, yes. But also work on building a bit more of a home base for the in between. There will be sacrifices. No situation is 100% perfect and I'll likely struggle with the routine. But, I do love a good challenge. #livewithoutlimits PC Mamma @althearogers
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Where does the road take you to this weekend? For me it's Oktoberfest! (Unfortunately not in Germany though)
So here's something I never talk about: anxiety. Don't worry, this isn't an essay coming your way, I'm not going to share a panic attack on video and I have no interest in making this an epic talking point. But, the more I talk to friends and family, the more I discover that this whole anxiety problem isn't just a minor issue, it's a problem that touches everyone. For some it's so severe they can't leave their houses, for others it's a quiet killer that they never talk about, and for some luckier people running amongst us, it's an occasional blip on the roadmap of life. As I get older I've really learned to treasure the moments where I have no anxiety at all. This usually happens when I'm sitting in my car, music on full volume and I realise I am healthy, my family is healthy, I have a roof over my head, I can eat, pay my bills and have some money left over for a little fun. I embrace that moment. If I could bottle that moment I would because I know that life isn't made up of those moments alone. I know that as good as this feels, l'll have a reason to feel something else in no time. I'm reminded of that time and again when life throws unexpected curb balls in the form of hurricanes, heart attacks, job losses or simple misunderstandings. So, why the picture above in discussing this topic? Well, last night I found myself having a carefree second, at a neighbours house with a view of a world I call home in the USA. Now, if you've been following FFG for a while, you'll know I've had anxiety about where to live- UK vs USA- for years. Right here, with this view, I felt myself starting to have a bit of a panic attack on the idea once again. But somehow I held it together and decided to just be thankful I was standing there, in those few seconds, at all. Anxiety will always be there. I just wasn't letting it in right then and there. So for me, this picture is worth more than the outfit I'm wearing or the view behind me. This pic is a reminder that I deal with anxiety on a daily basis but I'm also lucky enough to tell it to bugger off once and a while ;)